Save The Last Dance
Sunday, April 30, 2006
LIFE AT ROCK CREEK
Church @ Rock Creek. Love it. God knew that I needed to hear this message today so he made sure that I got up and went to Church. The Pastor's are working on a series, today was part 3:Change Your Life Now! Oh my goodness, who out there needs to do that? Me.Me.Me. I am bad about not reading my bible or not praying everyday. But I try and do the best I can. Well today, he preached on Crisis, Commitment, Confession, & Conversion. Hello, didn't I just write about my crisis? Oh yeah, he told me what my biggest problem was and how to handle it. Guess what? Yeah, I got that phone call right after service that said things are going to be ok! YEAH! I wanted to cry and scream at the same time. All of the things inside of me have wanted to get out for so long. Now, you can have them. There they go!
I am going to do as God told me this morning and pray and just admit what my problems are, whether they are with something or somebody. I know that alot of people have a problem with forgiveness. I BELIEVE THAT IF YOU TRULY GIVE FORGIVENESS YOU WILL FIND PEACE IN YOURSELF AND OTHERS!



"IF ANYONE BELONGS TO CHRIST, THEY ARE A NEW CREATION. THE OLD THINGS HAVE GONE; EVERYTHING IS MADE NEW!" 2 Corinthians 5:17

If anyone lives in the Little Rock area and hasn't heard of the Church @ Rock Creek go to : http://www.churchatrockcreek.org/ it is AWESOME!!!!!

posted by Pamela @ 4:14 PM   0 comments
Friday, April 28, 2006
Just About ME
Monday I have another appointment at my favorite spot in the world (haha) my Doctor's office. We have to discuss some of my test and what to do for the pain. It is driving me totally insane!
Same ol' X-Rays and Bloodwork too. I am hoping the Dr. has some good news for me.

I know alot of you all read my blog yesterday, well just to clarify I wasn't talking about Bill.
Anywho, I feel alittle relief today. I'm not sure why but I know that it is God taking care of me and the situation. I just have to continue to put my faith in his hands and not try and do everything myself. Wheeew! I am very head strong, so it is hard for me to do that. Lots of prayers!


posted by Pamela @ 1:55 PM   1 comments
Thursday, April 27, 2006
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A SITUATION WHERE YOUR FEELINGS FOR SOMEONE OR SOMETHING CAUSES SO MUCH DRAMA? OH HOW WELL DO I KNOW THIS! I FEEL LIKE EACH AND EVERY TIME I GET INTO A RELATIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE THERE IS THAT ONE PERSON THAT HAS SO MUCH INFLUENCE THAT IT ALL STARTS TO JUST FALL APART. I HAVE BEEN MARRIED AND DIVORCED BUT YOU KNOW WHAT THE HARDEST PART OF ALL OF IT IS. IT IS LOOSING SOMEONE THAT YOU THOUGHT YOUR HEART BELONGED TO BUT THEN IN THE SAME BREATH FEELING SO RELIEVED! I HAVE ALL OF THESE THOUGHTS GOING THROUGH MY MIND THAT I AM NOT SURE WHAT TO DO. I JUST BOW MY HEAD AND ASK GOD TO HELP!!!! I KNOW HE HEARS ME BUT IN THIS WORLD WE WANT IMMEDIATE ANSWERS AND THAT ISN’T HOW HE WORKS.
THIS MY FRIENDS IS HOW I AM FEELING TODAY!

I WANT TO JUST SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CAN PEOPLE NOT GO ON AND JUST DEAL WITH THERE OWN PROBLEMS INSTEAD OF GETTING IN OTHERS BUISNESS?

FALLING IN LOVE, IT JUST SEEMS SO EASY BUT OH, HOW HARD. MY HEART BELONGS TO THAT ONE PERSON OUT THERE! I FEEL I CAN NEVER HAVE THE RELATIONSHIP WITH THIS PERSON, BECAUSE OF THE PERSON WHO IS SO INFLUENTIAL ON THEM.

WE TALK LAUGH, FIGHT, ETC. ALL OF THE THINGS THAT PEOPLE DO IN RELATIONSHIPS. BUT, WHAT DO YOU DO? DO YOU CONTINUE TO DEAL WITH THE DRAMA? OR DO YOU JUST GO ON WITH LIFE AND TRY ONCE MORE? THIS PERSON MEANS SO MUCH TO ME AND MY HEART IS CRYING FOR HELP! I CANNOT TELL THEM HOW TO DECIDE OR WHAT TO DO. I JUST HAVE TO LET IT BE!

OH I COULD TELL STORIES FOR DAYS ABOUT THE WAY THINGS ARE! WHY? I WANT TO BE THAT CERTAIN PERSON WHO HAS THE PERFECT LIFE! HAHA! NEVER GOING TO HAPPEN! I WANT MY SON TO BE HAPPIER THAN ANYONE IN THE WORLD! BUT IS THIS JUST THE FAIRYTALE DREAM THAT I AM HAVING? YOU BET! I LOVE FAIRYTALES BECAUSE IT MAKES YOU THINK THAT POSSIBLY, MAYBE, ONE DAY WE COULD BE THAT CINDERELLA OR SLEEPING BEAUTY.

OH, HAVE YOU EVER BEEN PUT IN SUCH A SPOT THAT YOU HAVE TO EXPLODE OR SOMETHING JUST TO FEEL RELIEF? I AM THERE!!!!!

I AM ASKING GOD FOR HELP IN THIS SITUATION. I KNOW HE WILL SEE ME THROUGH THIS!
posted by Pamela @ 12:31 PM   2 comments
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
Surgery
Paul did real good through his surgery. Doctor said that everything went well. He is on his way home now hopefully. He was in recovery about an hour ago. Yeah!!!!!


P.S. ???Lisa, I am not sure which one you are. Can you help me out here?....
Just comment and give me a hint so I know!
posted by Pamela @ 11:03 AM   0 comments
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
TOPICS!!!! WHERE DO I START?
Update from doctor:

I had my ct and ultrasound week before last and everything looked good. Hopefully my blood is going back to normal after all of these surgeries. Have to go back next week for more blood work. Thank you for your prayers.

I guess I will always have something to laugh about when I look at all of the scars on my body. I have two scars on my back and four on my side and three on my stomach. 9 1" to 2" cuts on my body!!!!! I had someone hug me the other day and I still hurt from the lung surgery, so I was like please stop cause I got into a fight with someone and got stabbed. They freaked out! I laughed so hard that I hurt myself more.

Today has been one of the bad days and then good for Zach.. it is papaw rogers birthday and it is haven's birthday. He was happy and sad all in one. Oh how I would love to take the hurt from him. He took his papaw's passing very hard and I wasn't sure what to do for him. I just had to let him know that mom was there for him. I would like to take a moment and let Bill and his family know that I truly cannot express the love that I feel for you and your family for allowing me to be there for Zach. I thank you from the bottom of my heart! Zach truly appreciated it also. He kept asking me to stay and I knew I couldn't leave him. Thanks

Well Haven had a good little party at her house tonight. It was just too cute hearing her sing "happy birthday to haven". She is such a mess. I am sure that paul will post more. Her guest included her Mamaw Gladys, Zacherie, Xander, Addie and her mom, Aunt Boom Boom, Mom and Dad.

I am staying at paul's tonight with everyone, mom can't handle taking them grandkids to daycare so the mean ol' aunt gets to take them. Paul is having surgery on his ear wednesday morn. please say a prayer for him. He has always had trouble and I hope that this will help so much.


Got to go get some sleep. Goodnight all.
posted by Pamela @ 10:10 PM   3 comments
Monday, April 03, 2006
Just to let everyone know that Bill's father Roger Pamplin passed on Saturday, April 1, 2006. His services are as follows: Today, Monday, April 3, 2006 at Rolfe Chapel (?spelling) visitation from 5:30 to 9:00. Tomorrow, Funeral at Church @ 2pm.

Thanks for all of the prayers!

Love Pam
posted by Pamela @ 10:18 AM   0 comments
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